Virgin Adulteress

I have the key to the secret of life
I know the reason and purpose
I have the plan
I can save the world
But it is still not enough
to make me happy

The gem of joy is hidden in my heart
Wisdom oozes from my soul
Silent is my tongue to teach

The greatest gift of all is mine
it is still not enough
Numb to the blessings I receive
Wired for misery
Endless loop playback martyrdom
Marching to the beat of sorrow
Hell hath not heat in this oven
Diseased rotting self esteem
Salvation is mine
but it is not enough for me
Selfish for more
I expect demand I'm special
Deserve more
And wait to enjoy
All I have to share
Not of greed
But for someone to ask of me